~Korasia-Lady

yes yes it's here again and maybe i'll actually finish it this time XD...


100ThemesChallenge

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Prologue: so I felt I should say say what I wanted to say to this person all along

I remember how we met,
teasing the handsome violinist on the bus
he played at a coffee shop on the corner every now and again.

I never did get to see him play the violin.
he visit me a work a few different times once with a huge grin on his face as he pulled out a mandolin case with a beautiful instrument inside.

I remember a shy kiss after watching an dark comedy.
egged on by a friend who we had made nachos and played games. chatting about how a certain grape soda could be fermented.

I also remember following him to a renaissance faire where he by hand made his own glorious set of wings, and chain mail shirt there were feathers in his room for quite awhile haha.

I also vividly recall playing tag in the dark of a shopping parking lot. he was much faster than I. I could only wish i could be as nimble as he.
long walks by water fronts to end at a park where we played. walking back with a plucked flower whose name referenced something interesting indeed.

but why I'm remembering these things now and why do I still feel this weird tug on my heart when hearing his name. I don't think I've had any real romantic inclination to this boy. or perhaps I have and I'm just not yet ready to admit that I made some mistakes.

I think it's is because a stranger with the same first name who stopped by the store that I currently work at and stirred something within my subconscious, I took a nap after work today and he was in my dream. not as a main character but he was there unmistakably. we last spoke before he was planning on joining the military. to my knowledge he's engaged or perhaps married by now. I really hope he's happy, the boy I met, I hope he's still that boy inside somewhere. I miss him perhaps someday we'll meet again as friends in this life or the many to come. but I'll be seeing you around, but for now farewell.

it's kinda silly but it's made me really happy ^_^ on Face book there's a rate your friends thing and it said i was more desirable than 84.75% of the people on facebook... that's alot @_@ my global ranking was 11,807 out of 24,631,594 that made my day ^_~

just thought I'd share hehe

hehe I'm mostly posting this because I'm tired of looking at the old one from january

so I thought I'd post a short journal about the new anime's I've been watching lately
+ Clannad a highschool story with a mysterious alternate universe with a lonely girl that makes things out of random stuff

+Uta Kata
+ and this other one I don't remember the title to, it's about this demon that has come to the human world and eats mysteries to survive. it's really weird but it's interesting to ^^
well that's all for now ^_^ if I find more I'll be sure to share them! for now I'm gonna get back to my homework XD I have alot of anatomy homework to do ^_^

***********DISCLAIMER************
First I'd like to thank everyone who has taken the time out of their day to read my thoughts. second I would like to state that the following entry contains my ideals, my hopes, and my quest. this is me being serious for once in my life so I'd like it for you to either just read it ingest my thoughts and understand me better, or to read and leave a courteous message after the beep

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Ah so it goes like this... I'm a fairly average girl living an average life, I used to be many things when i was younger I was a multi-tasker I was athletic, I was talented... a lot of that seems to have disappeared but I'm still me through this, and even trying to make the best of it hurts. I've become lazy and self indulgent and irresponsible... at least I think so.

My worst fear of life is not death in and of itself but rather having to view all of my short comings in life... I know I'm youngish and still have a lot of time to make a difference, and I hope I can in someway. right now however I feel helpless, there are so many crutches I've been leaning on for most of my life and now I realize how many I have... I really want to be independent but it' not easy it's not moderately difficult, it's the hardest thing I've ever tried to do in my life.

my goals in life are these:
Respect Cherish, Laugh & Love
I hope to be respected and to be able to be a honest fun and faithful friend. Cherishing the small things in life, from nature to a good cup of coffee or a pleasant nights rest. Laughing is a staple in my life I hope to surround myself with people who love laughter as much as I do, have their own quirky traits. Love it is my largest wish that I am able to love my friends family and the people around me with all my heart. I do try. I hope that someday a man will find me equally lovable and start a family with me firmly rooted in love and respect. now that doesn't mean that we as friends, family, or other relations will never fight or never have our differences, but I hope to be able to be the person people feel like they can talk to. Communication is KEY! hey those of you that keep all your emotions bottled up will one day implode for all the frustration from all that is the world around you. let it out, I don't believe you were meant to be cloistered away to the far reaches of hermit-dom where you don't allow yourself to have any kind of interaction with others. its not healthy. let it out your problems aren't as large as they seem.

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phew well thats about it for now, thank you for reading this far, you have my respect and gratitude for your time ^________^